I am my own worst critic, and tend to be very hard on myself. My type-A personality drives me to accomplish much, and I have a difficult time relaxing. I set up very high expectations for myself and then feel defeated if I don’t live up to my self-imposed “righteous” standards. I put unrealistic expectations on myself and my family. I think my house should always be spotless, and that my kids should always behave and do what I think they should do. I drive myself to perfection, especially when I undertake any outside projects or events. I work myself up into a frenzy and push myself to exhaustion.
I believe it is a biblical concept to strive for excellence in all we do, and I get this from 1 Corinthians 10:31: “So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.” It is a good thing to want to do everything to the glory of God, and to strive for excellence. However, if I am so hard on myself that I feel guilt or shame because I haven’t lived up to my own expectations, then I am only hurting myself.
This week in Bible Study, we discussed our battle with sin and the power that we have as Christians to live a life pleasing to God based on Romans 8. The first thing we read in Romans 8:1 is “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” I don’t know why I expect perfection from myself—the only perfect person to ever walk this earth was Jesus. Not only that, but He came here to save me. He came to set me free from the bondage of sin and death, and He doesn’t want me to feel condemnation.
I am beginning to learn to have grace with myself when things don’t go as I have planned. I am human, and I am going to make mistakes. Romans 3:23, says “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” Most likely, I will continue to disappoint myself and others along the way, but I don’t have to feel condemned. I must choose to believe that I am flawed, but forgiven.
Does anyone else struggle to show themselves grace or am I alone in this battle? Today, I choose to show myself grace. Instead of driving myself to perfection, I chose to enjoy this Labor Day weekend with my family, and try to catch up on some much needed rest. I hope you enjoy a wonderful Labor Day weekend, and find rest in God this weekend!